have you ever suffered? if so, did you get better or have you, never quite recovered?

April 2nd, 2014

I went to a concert earlier tonight. Mansions opened up, then Pianos Become The Teeth, then La Dispute.  I got into La Dispute recently somewhat recently, there’s a post recently with a bunch of links to there music and talking about them, but I heard a song today in a new way.  The song is all our bruised bodies and the whole heart shrinks.  The song starts with: Read the rest of this entry »


February 3rd, 2014

just testing to make sure subscribe still works.

W L Weller 7 year

February 1st, 2014

I meant to pour myself some of my W L Weller 12 year that I bought here that’s real good… But I poured myself some W L Weller 7 year that I haven’t had in a while… I originally wasn’t really drinking it because I bought it with Adam at the liquor store by his house that he went to all the time and he and I went to all the time when I was down there visiting, I bought it when I spent the month plus when I was moving out to Seattle and so wasn’t really drinking it and hadn’t drank it at all since he died… I wasn’t sure when or if I was going to drink it, hadn’t decided what I wanted to Read the rest of this entry »

this is why I ask about yell-y/scream-y music

January 20th, 2014
Just sent this e-mail to a friend and figured it’d a make a decent blog post as well:
Been really liking this band La Dispute, both lyrically and musically.  This is one of my favorite songs by them, St. Paul Missionary Baptist Church Blueshttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BQvXff_mVkM

I can’t place exactly why but I get kind of emotional every time I listen to this song.  It’s not the religious aspect, at least not directly, because I’m not religious at all…  Something about their Read the rest of this entry »

been to long, which is the name of like half the post on this blog

January 10th, 2014

I’m kind of in a melancholy state of bitter sweet happiness right now, kinda like fuck my life but smiling, like the circumstances that are making you say that are slightly amusing…. Right now I feel like I’ve never wanted something more than I’ve wanted to talk to Adam right now, for kinda retarded reasons, I want to talk to him about how Icehose is ok but not that good out here and how it must be a different Read the rest of this entry »

stream of thought but including much of what I’ve been thinking for the last month

September 14th, 2013

Been drinking some bourbon, started out with Buffalo Trace but switched to Wild Turkey because I need to get rid of it. both bourbon which is my drink of choice.  I’m the one that turned Adam on to bourbon, he liked scotch almost exclusively until I kept at him about bourbon. 🙂  Even kinda drunk I’m cheap, because I started drinking the wild turkey because I was like, “Hmmm… I’m probably drunk enough that Read the rest of this entry »

comes and goes

August 12th, 2013

Weekend before last sucked, as did most of last week. Thursday it broke and I felt normal, Friday was the same. Saturday was close to the same, Sunday kinda felt like going down hill again, and here we are Monday, and it sucks again.

It’s like just a layer of shitty is on top of Read the rest of this entry »

Good bye Adam

August 1st, 2013

My best friend is dead… I just made a category named after him for posts involving this and realized it’s telling that I currently have only three sections, one for posts involving the cancer I had and still get tested for, one for posts while I’m in Seattle where I moved 2500 miles away from family and friends to try and pursue a career and life, and now this one.  The first two speak for themselves as to how major they are, at a minimum they Read the rest of this entry »

He’s gone…

August 1st, 2013

I got a call on Wednesday, July 10th from a friend named Mike, who is really good friends with my Buddy Adam in Kansas City. He goes, “I don’t want to alarm you, it might be nothing but something weird’s going on and I don’t know what to do.” he goes on to explain that he, his brother and Adam were on Facetime together. Adam had been drinking some (which wasn’t abnormal) but was goofing around with a gun of his (which would be sorta abnormal). Apparently Mike and his brother saw Adam hold the gun up, jump and then got disconnected from Facetime. He tried calling back but Adam wouldn’t answer. He waited 10 mins and he couldn’t wait anymore, he Read the rest of this entry »


July 30th, 2013

(just found this post sitting in drafts for some reason, says published: Publish on: Sep 28, 2010 @ 17:28)
People stop at the right place for stop signs, even with no line but all bets are off for stop lights.  It’s not uncommon to see someone totally past the line or a car length behind the line… Seriously wtf?!

Oh, and I just saw a guy hitting himself in the head with an empty 20oz soda bottle while waiting for the light to turn green… Ya…