Archive for August, 2010

while on the road

Saturday, August 28th, 2010

I went to visit a buddy of mine who lives near Kansas City for a week. Got back a week ago last Sunday.  Had a good time.  I stayed at my uncle’s house near St. Louis and it split the trip up nicely.  It was funny how different driving in IL and driving in Mo is.  IL roads are pretty much straight and sometimes veer slightly but that’s it and there’s no hills at all basically.  In Mo the highway is curvy and there’s hills and valleys fairly often.  I wasn’t used to having to vary how much I push the peddle to stay going the same speed because I’m used to IL highways.  It was real weird how huge the difference was and how odd it felt.  I didn’t notice it last time because last time I drove down I drove my mom’s car which has cruise control (mine doesn’t).

Stuff I saw along the way:  (more…)

quote that sums my ass up

Friday, August 13th, 2010

stumbled on this quote and it rings pretty true for me currently:

The greatest tragedy in life is that most people spend their entire lives indefinitely preparing to live – Paul Tournier

another thing

Sunday, August 8th, 2010

Same shit as last post is fucking with me some still but not as much as last night.  Something else I’ve been thinking about that was brought to mind from the stuff last night about the potential for a pattern, is that how do you ‘get over’ something that has no time limit or end?  I can get (more…)


Saturday, August 7th, 2010

I was looking through some shit and apparently 07/2009 is when I was officially in remission last time and that’s the exact same time I was officially in remission this time…  It’s kinda fucking with me…  Nothing hella specific but just knowing that seems kind of oppressive…  I know it’s just a coincidence but knowing that in (more…)

had an appointment with oncologist

Friday, August 6th, 2010

Had the last appointment with Dr. Kaminer (the oncologist that did the high dose chemo with me) before I switch back to Dr. Dragon as my main oncologist.  Not much to report.  I ask about my hip hurting if that was normal or if it should be hurting or shouldn’t be or what.  She ask if I was more active and I said yes and she didn’t (more…)

little better

Wednesday, August 4th, 2010

Feel like I should post since it’s been a while (post from a couple days ago hardly counts) but I don’t know, I guess I don’t want to jinx it? Been feeling a little better about things. It’s odd, nothing’s actually resolved per se but but like identifying more fully how you feel about something and why you may feel that way somehow (more…)

there is a bright side of everything

Sunday, August 1st, 2010

talking to a buddy of mine and:

bLOB: gonna go get my hair cut
bLOB: first haircut in like 6 months (more…)