Last Thursday night I didn’t sleep at all. \u00a0Friday night I slept some but not great, way better than not at all though. \u00a0Saturday I looked at the paper they gave me with the zoloft (because it’s the only thing that changed) and trouble sleeping is a listed side effect. \u00a0I stopped taking it and started to sleep a little better. \u00a0I seem to be back to sleeping regular bad instead of extra bad.<\/p>\n
I have \u00a0a CT scan tomorrow to check if the lumps are gone… I can’t help but be \u00a0a little nervous about it… \u00a0Like my dad said in response to me saying that, “Well, that makes sense, you’ve been disappointed before.” \u00a0Mother fuck I hope it’s clear… \u00a0Should be but who the fuck knows…<\/p>\n
Overall I’m doing a little better mentally. \u00a0I was talking to a buddy of mine and he reminded me\/reawakened some goals that I had set previously that have been on hold for the last 2+ years because of this shit. \u00a0It gave me something to shoot for, something tangible, versus just sitting and spinning and waiting some unknown amount of time until I’m feeling normal again. \u00a0Still not back to normal mentally but am at least one better footing than I was a week\/week and and a half ago. \u00a0I have an appointment with a psychiatrist the 6th, hopefully she can dial in the meds a little better and has something that won’t keep me from sleeping. \u00a0Have a call in to the Cancer Wellness Center that has free services to cancer patients including therapists, so I’ve got a call in there too. \u00a0Figure it can’t hurt.<\/p>\n
Physically I’m still making small gains each week, getting a little stronger and whatnot. \u00a0It’s slow, which sucks but slow small gains are better than nothing most definitely.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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