I met with the social worker and got a prescription for Zoloft from Dr. Kaminer. Only been two days so don’t feel any different yet. We’ll see.<\/p>\n
Getting out and doing things helps but it’s hard to get myself to do stuff. I just don’t feel like doing anything. Also, there’s only so many times you can go to the grocery store or whatever. Right now I can’t guarantee I”ll be at work at a specific time or be there every day, but I’m thinking of seeing if I can come in for a few hours when I can to try and give myself a reason to do something.<\/p>\n
It’s pretty easy for me to be down about the situation I’m in. Basically no aspect of my life right now is ‘right’. I can’t even sleep well, I go to bed, sleep for 2-4 hours, wake up and have to eat, then can’t get back to bed for an hour or so and then wake up after 1-3 hours and probably have to eat again, and then try and sleep again if I don’t have any appointments or anything. I’m basically never the right temperature, I’m often too cold from AC or too hot. At night with just a sheet on I’m too hot, without the sheet I’m too cold. I ended up booting a computer to heat up the room so I’m only slightly too hot and can kind of sleep. Already talked about eating and that I’m weak and get out of breath real easy.\u00a0 I’m almost always uncomfortable sitting or laying because my back won’t stay aligned for long (like fucking hours) after going to the chiropractor.<\/p>\n
It’s rough when I’m sitting home alone during the day or trying to sleep but can’t. It’s easier when my families around or I’m out doing something (usually with people) but like I said, it can be hard to actually get myself to do something.\u00a0 It also varies by day, Monday was alright, yesterday sucked and today’s been ok so far.<\/p>\n
I just need to try and appreciate the little things and the small gains I make, but it’s hard to see the forest for the trees.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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